If only they can see , how much she's suffering inside .
Everyday , when she sees them , she can't bear to look .
Because she knows what will happen .
She can't let that happen .
If only they stop being so blind .
If only they know that there's more to her than meets the eye .

It just doesn't matter

It doesn't mattter that much to me anymore just so you know . Your presence , your absence , the things you do , the words you say . I don't care anymore . I'm not who you knew anymore . Like any other human would , I  have changed . I am stronger . You don't affect me anymore . So stop thinking that I care . I don't . You can do whatever you want , wherever you want . It used to affect me so much , whatever you do . But I realized that you're not worth it and I was stupid . So its okay , you move on with your life , I move on with mine . Its not like you'll ever read this anyway , to people like you , I mean nothing .

Prefect ?

So here's whats been going on lately , Pn.Mahnum asked me to be a prefect a few weeks ago , and naturally at first i declined .. then i had this long talk with my mum at asam on why i should not be a prefect .
Factors why i shouldn't be a prefect ? Mostly concerns time management . My time management hasn't exactly been outstanding . I went for track and field for about 5 days in between two weeks and missed school for 5 days as well . But I just refused to ask my friends for the homework and the going-ons at school . So , simply put , I shut myself from any matters concerning academic and s*** for about two weeks . Then on the next week when I am back at school , *insert some Bahasa Melayu ( padan muka) * I WAS COMPLETELY LOST . BOOHOO . So it took me more than a month , (YES , more than a month ) to actually finish all my incomplete homework and catch up with what i missed at school . Honestly speaking , it wouldn't have taken so long if not for me procrastinating .So you can say that that just proved my time management is like * thumbs down* . Plus i told my mum that if i become a prefect , i definitely would want to get one of the high-ranked-posts , and that would mean I have to work super hard to balance between my co-curricular activities and my academic . Not to mention , I planned on joining ed board ... But somehow , I changed my mind and decided to go for it . I'm not going to tell you why , its quite personal .  :) cheer up ! hehe.. don't be sad .. I can't reveal it , my apologies . So i went and  get the form from Pn.Mahnum and filled it up , got all the teacher's comments and signature , handed it in .. and woosh .. I 'm on my way , to be a prefect  :)