All In A Blur

School today. Wasted 5 hours in the hall doing nothing and listening to briefings by our teachers about our form 4 subjects. Funny thing is,as important as it sounds,no one bothered to listen. I guess we're all pretty much still feeling the after-exams mood where you don't feel like doing anything at all and the best part is you don't even need to. I don't even understand how that made sense. Oh gosh, I'm just ranting really. So this might be a good time for you to stop reading before you waste more of your time. I'm actually excited for form 4. Its a new syllabus,new subjects and new teachers :) I can't wait for next year. I'll make the most out of it. Wondering whether or not I should take English Literature. The thing is, I used to be really passionate about it. But now,I'm just not so sure anymore. I always thought that being a journalist or taking up any career that has to do with writing would be the right thing for me. Times change and people change. I don't feel that passionate about it anymore. Of course I still love to write. It is my favorite past time and i don't think it will change anytime soon. But now I feel like all that passion that I used to have for this its all not there anymore. Like my passion for cosmology took over. I love cosmology. I love studying about the Universe and everything in it. I yearn to find out everything about the Universe. How it was really created,whether or not the Big Bang theory is accepted and e.t.c. That is also why I always stay glued in front of the television if the History channel is showing the Universe :) Its all so fascinating don't you think ? But I don't think there is any chance at all for me pursuing a career in that field. I mean,I'm living in Malaysia. Lets face the facts and its not like most of the universities in the world offer this. Very few do and I am so lost. Oh gosh. I just think its really important to do something you are passionate about and not force yourself into something else. I won't be happy and I will hate my job. Is it too early to discuss this ? Maybe. So i might as well quit worrying and go to sleep , trust God to help me.

Carefree

One day, once I'm old enough,I will go on a search for that carefree life i've always been dreaming of.I long for it.Its not that I don't appreciate the life i am living now, I do, very much indeed. But then again, since I've been to New Zealand last year, I've always been dreaming of going back there again and maybe this time never ever come back. You might think that its just something all of us long for. But for me,its different. Its more like a longing for freedom. To be able to travel to anywhere in this world,and camp at anywhere I want to. I don't mean those kind of expensive around the world trips, I mean those where you just camp around and walk and cycle and just,do things the way you want it. I miss it so much. The short trip to New Zealand. It was so so so beautiful. I feel like I could've just stayed there and never ever come back. That carefree life, i'll find it one day. There are people who are travelling around the world, and living their carefree life and someday, I'm gonna be like them.

The Taste of Freedom

PMR's over for us 97's.It was a long week.Three torturous years of studying all came down to that one week. I'm glad to say,we made it. Our last test was KH and everyone in the hall was shouting afterwards. It was chaotic,yet contenting. Now we all can relax while awaiting our results. That would be another nerve-wracking experience. But then again,I know its weird,but I do feel like everything went by so quicky and soon we'll all be form 4 students and I don't want it all to go by so quicky. If every human could choose,I'm sure they would like to have the happier memories pass by at a slower pace and the sad,teary ones quickly.

This was all an amazing experience and totally worth all that studying. Whether it all worked out or not,we have yet to find out. But right now,its time to enjoy life ~~ :)