Paper Cranes

So I went out with Dharsh,Jo,Namee,Aims,Agilan,Fai,Nich & Kean Han today & it was fun fun fun.Woo ! (y) But it was kind of a last minute thing and therefore there were a few people who couldn't come.Like Thanesh,Cyn Er and Iris.We actually bought a ticket for Thanesh.But he couldn't make it and the ticket went to waste,just like that. Our movie was Rise Of The Guardians ! and....it was a really good movie,I definitely wasn't expecting that and I'd highly recommend you guys to go watch ! ;) Jack Frost FTW ! But then again,I really wanted to watch Breaking Dawn part 2 as well,but since the guys weren't interested....

Anyway,we went hunting for a place to fill our tummies later on and everyone was being very indecisive.God you should have seen how long we took to actually decide on one place and settle down.Hah and we chose Carl's Jr. Wanted to go play lasertag but we were all mostly broke ! :( Bumped into Aisya & Anais there hehe. So in the end,we went for bowling.I didn't feel like bowling at first because my ankle hurt.
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Alright fine,it was really because I couldn't bowl.I mean some people just can't bowl.You don't ask why they just can't. But maybe in my case it was because that was only my second time bowling in the past 15 years or so which is why I sucked really bad.But then after a few tries I actually got better and better.So I am quite satisfied with the result really. Besides,it wasn't that bad since I had the company of Dharsh who was also really bad at it ;) The best part is,she was the one who wanted to go bowling and later on she said she hated it hah. The guys were just plain bullies,getting strikes and all when to us knocking down one pin is already a major accomplishment.But it was fun really,we had a great time although Mr.worldwide,holy angel and cyn er wasn't there.

Alright,now I have to find a way to persuade my mum to let me go watch breaking dawn.Oops.

Teehee !

P.S. Carly was #1 last week on The X Factor USA ! Loveee !

If any of you are watching The X Factor USA and live in the USA,please please please,I'm begging you to vote for Carly Rose Sonenclar :) She's amazing,amazing,amazing and definitely my favourite. Carly's Angels !

That young lady right there :) She's only 13,but she is definitely my winner. Vote for her and follow her on twitter @CarlyRoseMusic :)

New My Fair Princess ! (Xin Huan Zhu Ge Ge)

So recently I have been addicted to this new taiwanese drama,titled 'Xin Huan Zhu Ge Ge' (: and its a really really awesome drama ! One of the best dramas I've ever watched and that says a lot since I've watched more than 200 dramas I think ? It has such a great storyline and with the inclusion of this guy,Benjamin ! I know the reviews said it was bad and everything,(at least thats what I heard) but you know,trust me, this drama is amazing (: It really is worth your time.Yes,there is 100 episodes.The cast members are just so cute ! (: I've fallen in love with all of them.

Blurry.But as you can see,this people are the actors and actresses ! Of course there are many more of them,but this people are the main actors and actresses (:

By the way, there are many couples in this drama,which makes me love it even more ! Couple number 1 , Xiao Yan Zi & Yong Qi (5th Prince ) played by Li Sheng and Zhang Rui !

Couple number 2 ! Xia Zi Wei & Fu Er Kang played by Hai Lu and Li Jia Hang.

Couple number 3 ! Qing Er and Xiao Jian played by Zhao Li Ying and  Gao Zi Qi (: Also my favourite couple !

Couple Number 4 ! Jin Suo & Liu Qing played by Sun Yao Qi and Wang Jin Duo.

Couple Number 5 ! Sai Ya and Fu Er Tai played by Chai Bi Yun and Lu Hong.

So thats about all the couples I love in this show (: I've been watching it over and over again for days now hehe.

Alicia Keys

Brand New Me by Alicia Keys
At least this is cheering me up :) The lyrics,wow ,wow.

Lyrics :
It's been a while, I'm not who I was before
You look surprised, your words don't burn me anymore
Been meaning to tell you, but I guess it's clear to see
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of me
Can't be bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame
Had to grab my heart back
God know something had to change
I thought that you'd be happy
I found the one thing I need, why you mad
It's just the brand new kind of me
Never bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Oh, it took a long long road to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, don't be surprised

If I walk a little taller
If I speak up when you're wrong
If I walk a little taller
I'd be known to you too long
If you noticed that I'm different
Don't take it personally
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of me

Oh, it took a long long road to get here
It took a brave brave girl to try
I've taken one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, oh see you look surprised

Hey, if you were a friend, you want to get know me again
If you were worth a while
You'd be happy to see me smile
I'm not expecting sorry
I'm too busy finding myself
I got this
I found me, I found me, yeah
I don't need your opinion
I'm not waiting for your ok
I'll never be perfect, but at least now i'm brave
Now, my heart is open
And I can finally breathe
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of free
That ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of me
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new time for me

This tears,they just won't stop raining down.

Infinite.

Its funny how I was in such a good mood just 40 minutes ago and how my mood changed so quickly.I'm just back from running.Doing my own useless and unhelpful training.Which obviously is not working at all.Maybe it would you know,if i'd start doing it properly.

I feel so angry and pissed at myself for even letting this thought in my brain.I feel like giving up.I guess.I feel like I really can't do it and maybe,just maybe this is impossible.Like I've been wrong all the while and that this wasn't what I could do.No matter how much I want it,how much I NEED it,it just wasn't meant for me ?
I know I definitely shouldn't give up no matter what.I'm not even supposed to think about it.Oh what am I doing really,trying to make myself feel better by typing this out,trying to encourage myself to not give up and hold on?Its so tempting,to just give up and let it all pass like it has never happened before.To acknowledge that its not for me and I'm just not meant to be a good runner.To stop worrying about the future and just live my life.

Every time I make it through an obstacle,another one comes by.Its just so unfair.Life is so unfair.You know how they say you shouldn't compare yourself to others because you are who you are.But sometimes you just can't help comparing yourself,and you'd feel so dull and useless.Then you'd try and tell yourself I can be like that too,and start working your ass off for it.When you think you're almost there,you're so close,you just need to work a little harder,then it comes,something happens that will knock you down and force you to rethink just how good you are.Then you'd realize you're so so far away from what you once thought you were so close too.You'd start wondering whether you'll ever make it.Everything just seems so tough and you can't seem to hold on much longer.To faith,to hope.Then there's that annoying voice inside your head,nagging you to give up because you can't make it.You'd try your best to ignore it,and at first,you succeed, but then that voice will get louder and louder and you just can't help ignoring it anymore.

But I know I can't give up.I know because once I do,I will be normal again,I will be just another face in the crowd,I will lose what I thought was me and I definitely can't BEAR, to disappoint everyone who has helped me,encouraged me,motivated me,support me and most of all,BELIEVED in me.How can I do such a horrible horrible thing.But its so hard,and that light at the end,is slowly but surely fading away.I hate this,all of this negativity.I hate it all.

The apple to my pie

Nothing much has changed.The holidays are as boring as ever.Although now I do have a few things to do,but they are not exactly making me happy. They're more like tasks,that I am forced to complete. *sigh*

But there was this thing that cheered me up a little a few days ago :) I saw banana ! I haven't seen him in so SO long. So being able to see him that day I was happy :) He kind of makes me a happier person and lightens my mood everytime I see him cause he's just such a sweet and friendly guy. The last time I was horribly upset cause I lost this race and well he made me feel better somehow by just talking to me. It wasn't even those deep heart-to-heart talking thing,it was just an exchange of a few sentences,but it still worked. Like magic (: I guess thats the last time I'll see him for this year though,no chance of me seeing him till school reopens next year. Ahh well,I'll just have to wait. Its already past 3 AM so I think I should go have my rest now. Until next time (: 

Best Wishes

This post is for the form fives,who are about to sit for one of the most major examination of their lives.
Here's wishing you all best of luck and pray that your wishes come true.
To all the already retired ex-members of the prefectorial board,you guys have been amazing seniors.Thanks for everything,I really appreciate it.

Was looking around YouTube earlier and I found this song.

The Graduation Song by Vitamin C :)
They played this song on graduation day.
Two more years and then we will be the ones listening to that song and reminiscing on all our memories for the past few years.We will be the nostalgic ones. I can't wait for next year ! New syllabus,new stream,new class, and new experiences.

I'm already creating all sorts of happenings in my head.
May all my wishes come true.

Freedom

HAHAHA this *points above* is TOO CUTEE ! PMR is finally and officially OVERRR WHOOO ! 

and this is exactly how i feel. 
my brothers on the other hand ? not quite. they're more like.....this.

tooo bad their exams start later and end later than mine.
                 
This is totally irrelevant but i guess you can tell i really LOVE Tangled. Yes I do. Because its such an awesome movie and omg,FLYNN/EUGENE. OH GOSH. THAT SEXY BEAST.

DAYUMM. Just LOOK at that handsome face! HAHAHA. It is rather annoying that they draw his nose wrongly. Look at that nose ! FUHH.

So PMR actually ended a couple of weeks ago but I was just too busy basking in the joy of freedom.
During that couple of weeks,Mum and Dad bought new stuff for me too. I mean really AWESOME stuff ! :D

1) A BRAND NEW SAMSUNG GALAXY S3 ! <3 and just today it received and update on Android 4.1 Jelly Bean.
2) An ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL acoustic guitar ! <3

Thank you mum and dad you have to stop spoiling me! <3 But I'm loving the new acoustic guitar.It gives me something else to do during my long holidays besides sleeping and being online. :)
Also,thank God for this <3

School ended last Wednesday with the form 5's graduation ceremony. Us prefects had to help out in the hall for the ceremony and I was one of those people in charge of the prize-giving. But it was quite fun being backstage and helping out. I mean my job IS pretty interesting considering the fact that my other friends had to stand for the whole time and "jaga" the students which was definitely worse. I think I actually have more to do this holidays compared to school days.The thing is I do have a lot of time but I spend them all on sleeping and surfing the net.This really has got to stop.

Oh well,until next time.

*btw, if you're watching the X factor,please please please vote for Carly Rose Sonenclar ! I <3 her vocals ! #carlysangels *